Today was a good day for me. Managed to spend some time with my little brother. He seems alright and his medication seems to work. Together with another brother, we went bowling. He beat both of us. If not for his illness, he would have a great life. It's heartbreaking everytime I think of what his life could have been. Then again, it's fated that he suffered that illness. I accepted it that way. Maybe Allah meant for him to have an easier passage later on.
On a day like this I normally switch off everything else and try to focus on my personal life. I try to avoid thinking about work. Just a break from all the nonsense. I believe I have tried my best at work. If the boss is still not happy with it then he can do whatever he wants - suspend or sack me. I ll accept it. I ll simply have to find another job. InsyaAllah, I ll survive.
Anyway, I'm not ambitious. So, it would not kill me if my career suffers a set-back. Honestly, I don't really understand why some people need to resort to dirty tricks to get ahead in life, betraying their own friends and such. It makes me sick whenever I think about these people. I had my shares of such - being villified behind my back by people whom I regarded as dear friends...for no real good reasons at that.
Well, never mind. For me, what ever happens, I want my consience to be clear. I am not exactly claiming to be a religious person or being a person of high moral standings, but I am trying to live my life without harming others while trying to contribute what I believe should be good for society. If it turns out that I am wrong, then may Allah be my judge in the afterlife.
Ok, enough of my ramblings for today. Just sidetracking a bit from the usual political nonsense. May you all good people be blessed throughout this Ramadhan.