Thursday 26 July 2012

Aside...a beautiful day

Today was a good day for me. Managed to spend some time with my little brother. He seems alright and his medication seems to work. Together with another brother, we went bowling. He beat both of us. If not for his illness, he would have a great life. It's heartbreaking everytime I think of what his life could have been. Then again, it's fated that he suffered that illness. I accepted it that way. Maybe Allah meant for him to have an easier passage later on.



On a day like this I normally switch off everything else and try to focus on my personal life. I try to avoid thinking about work. Just a break from all the nonsense. I believe I have tried my best at work. If the boss is still not happy with it then he can do whatever he wants - suspend or sack me. I ll accept it. I ll simply have to find another job. InsyaAllah, I ll survive.

 Anyway, I'm not ambitious. So, it would not kill me if my career suffers a set-back. Honestly, I don't really understand why some people need to resort to dirty tricks to get ahead in life, betraying their own friends and such. It makes me sick whenever I think about these people. I had my shares of such - being villified behind my back by people whom I regarded as dear friends...for no real good reasons at that.

Well, never mind. For me, what ever happens, I want my consience to be clear. I am not exactly claiming to be a religious person or  being a person of high moral standings, but I am trying to live my life without harming others while trying to contribute what I believe should be good for society. If it turns out that I am wrong, then may Allah be my judge in the afterlife.

Ok, enough of my ramblings for today. Just sidetracking a bit from the usual political nonsense. May you all good people be blessed throughout this Ramadhan.

7 comments:

  1. "....I want my consience to be clear."

    My dear, your conscience cannot be clear because you have committed fitnah so many times. I guess your philosophy is not to worry about the afterlife, just worry about today.

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    1. Errr...actually it was not me la who go around telling people that Najib and Rosmah killed Altantuya...that one is a fitnah, I think. Got some more like that...but wasting my time only if I try explaining to people like you.

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    2. No, I don't go around talking about Najib and Altantuya either. But you have gone around talking about LGE and his supposed girlfriend, or PAS being controlled by DAP, or that DAP has communists while PAS has Jema'iah elements. No explanations needed, especially if you are blogging for BN.

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    3. Pity you, BigCat. YOur role as BN blogger requires you to commit sins which you would not normally do. This much I believe, especially if you are going to marry a Chinaman.

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    4. huhu..look like all this PR bloggers were God sent lor

      ketam batu

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  2. Reading this entry reminds me of my own life. Perhaps we can establish a club huh Big Cat? Those who have been bullied, betrayed,backstabbed, stepped-on, used, bad-mouthed by their own so-called friends are welcome. BTW, those in politics or have interest in politics are not included. Whadday say... ;)

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    1. Errr, but such a club can be quite depressing isn't it? I think we should go out more and meet better people instead. Life can be quite beautiful if we don't lose faith in humanity. Anyway, thanks for the suggestion. Cheers :-)

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